Seasons of Death
Death creates space for new life to form and prosper. I’ve experienced a death of self over the last two weeks that I sensed coming but didn’t sense the magnitude of what it would require of me. Some might say “the death of self” sounds scary and let me go ahead and squash anything outside of the fact that the “death of self” is terrifying.
We create labels for ourselves and live in the confines of what we know based on how we were raised and our current culture. You don’t have to do that. You can let it all die and allow for the new to flourish.
Death of self.
It’s unfamiliar and unknown. You don’t know what to do or where to go next. Fitness for me was never the end all be all. I started with the intention to better my life. I knew it was just a gateway to something better but I lost sight of that. Sometimes we lose sight of our actual path, our specific gifts and talents and how they will make our world a better place for others because we live in fight or flight mode. What if you didn’t have to fight another day? What if you lived in a space where your gifts and culture supported who you were called to be? What if you just needed to take one step in the direction of faith for life to really begin?
I placed my significance in photo shoots, follower counts, likes, comments, and continued to take up space because of what is popular, working against myself and my integrity. I don’t want to be popular, I want to be impactful and sometimes that means a sacrifice of self.
You see, what you saw was body goals, what about soul goals? What about healing goals? What about post trauma goals? What about spiritual goals? I’ve always said the work on the internal matters more than the external but that’s not what I was sharing the most of. Death of self and the boxes we put ourselves in don’t have to be the end. You can start anew.
I’ve worked with all kinds of women as a coach and the one thing that remains is that there is an integral need for inner work, healing, deliverance and restoration. You don’t get those things by following a nutrition and workout plan, and as a result I always felt I wasn’t doing enough. That’s because I haven’t been doing what I was placed on this earth to do. I’m simply a messenger and this new chapter of life at 29 begins now.
Maybe you don’t need a health coach. Maybe you need someone who can be an example and work through your past with you so you can reach new heights. Maybe you need spiritual deliverance so you can step into the person God created you to be.
You find yourself in the silence, in Your Higher power, not in what’s popular or your culture. I FIND myself in God. He is my means of significance and if I’m not sharing what really matters, how to help others heal, my story, the real me, I’m wasting the gift of my days here on earth.
What needs to die so that you can live?
